I'm tired, in fact, i seem tired every other day. And my UT grades sucks like shit.
I'm starting 2 get really depressed. Look at the bright side of life?
Ha!
How can i when i dun see any bright sides of it?
My fren once asked this.. "If there is really someone up there, why are people suffering here on earth?"
Yesterday, i was having a really bad headache. Once i moved my head, there's like a ball rolling inside. I went to my student's house to pass her solutions for math worksheet. I only wanted to pass her cos it's her math lesson 2mr and she hand in. Ended up, i spent 2 hours there teaching. I was down with fever and headache by then.
But.. heck.. i bought potato chips back home anyway. ^^
The rest of the dreary afternoon, i spent in on math and final fantasy. It was quite relaxing though. I was happy becos all four of us sat down and have our lunch together. Hey, it's not everyday we are able 2 do that. It's been... quite a few months that we have meals in proper at home. Miss those times. well.. anyhow... whatever.
World cup season, people are losing their beauty sleeps just for it.
My grandma asked.. "What is so exciting about chasing after one ball? Why not just give a ball each to one team?" aha! She's taking all the fun away from football.
But, it's true to certain extend, ya know.
I wonder why anyone would bet on football. Why allow your wealth be in 22 players's hands? Hey come on man... i mean, okay... you bet... but then, have certain limits lah! My God! Dun take the risk! Dun be dumb, can.
Nowadays, lotsa ppl kept asking me to go church. I'm sorry but even if you chop off my arms, chop off my legs, whatever, i won't go. Okay, that was a little exaggerating. Even if you give me $100, i won't go.
I'm strictly either a free-thinker or a buddhist. Dun drag me to services etc becos i'm not someone who is very religious. I believe that to certain extend, in fact, most of th perecentage, we are able to control our own lives. I told myself, i won't enter any church anymore after i went to City Harvest. Kaixin's fren nearly dragged my down to the front stage to rejoice or something. It was SO embarrassing especially the way they raise their arms to sing. i dunno. Maybe they find that they are able to communicate with Jesus or something, that's what i heard but then, hey.. i'm sorry, man.. i dun believe in that. So, pls respect my decisions. My God! They were verbally dragging me down! I've to exclaim, "no! i'm a buddhist!" so that they are able to get the idea. For one month, the girl kept calling me to go out for lunch/dinner etc. But hey... ho ho, sorry...i really detest it when ppl tries to influence me into their religions. I hate it, in fact. What you believe is your belief. It doesn't applies to everyone else around you.
My mom particularly does not like christians. I dunno why. Erm.. actually.. i know why but i forgot. She says it's difficult for a buddhist and christian to be 2gether becos there'd be conflicts on lifestyle. And plus... if my husband were to be christian, i'd have to convert and my mom do not want that. But, it's hard to go against fate ya know. If darn suay you like a person who is a christian, that's the life you have to accept which i hope i won't come across. Why want to give up your own religion for your bf/gf? It's darn dumb, ok. you know what is dumb? It means you dun have your own belief and you are easily influenced. In the first place, you do not have faith in your own religion that you are easily swayed.
But my dad is different, he said that it is okay to have a bf who has a different religion as long as he yearn for improvement and he is able to feed the family. And that... *touch wood* if my dad pass away, i'd burnt his body and not bury him in some christian's cemetry.
And that got me down thinking...
Sometimes, i think that i treat ppl too nicely that they'd climb on top of my head and shit there.
Oh Pls, dun treat me like some sorta dumbass for you to make use of and then get away by giving me dumb excuses. I'm someone who dunno how to really defend myself, but dun use that as an apportunity to shit on my head. It doesn't gives u the advantage and i'll certainly make sure of that.
If i were to know who are the two third parties, ha, I'll make sure i brutally chop off their heads. Okay.. i won't do that, but at least, i'll give that each a slap. What has the world turned into!? Dun both of you have your own familes? Dumb shitties.
Sometimes.. I just feel like being single for the rest of my life.
Some of my classmates mentioned that it is torturing to marry a woman. blah blah blah. Make-up, kotex, attitudes blah blah blah.
Hello.. as if you guys are so attractive that womans have to come to you and drag you to wedding.
Guys = tiko = too much dignity = brutal = insensitive = too sensitive whatever. I mean... argh.. i'd rather remain single!
I do not have to worry about, *clasp my hands together* "Oh, he is angry at me." "Oh! this.. Oh! that." what the hell.
Eh, females out there.. stop acting like you can't survive without men. Dun be dumb. what. men are only there for you to give birth. What can they give you other than nite pleasure and babies? Nothing else. Stay single and take care of your family. That's what i think, at least. haha!
Sometimes, I think that the experiences that i suffered, makes me think that remaining single is the best choice.
I mean.. I wouldn't know. If there's a guy, good. If there isn't a guy, it's also good. I know.. i shall marry some rich old fellow, wait for him to be at his death bed and cheat him into signing the will to pass all his wealth to me! WAHAHAH!
That's just a joke.
"And this marks THE END of the entry."
2:07 PM
2:07 PM
Living a life full of life. That's all about me that you should know.