It's been a long time since xiaohsin came 2 fetch me at lrt in proper. I can't deny that i feel disappointed when he said that it is troublesome 2 go bugis 2 fetch me home. Tt's not the xiaohsin i used 2 know. In fact, i felt down on the way to his house. But i told myself that it is indeed too much 2 ask him 2 cum bugis 2 fetch me. I guess, lrt isn't far from his house so i called him 2 lrt 2 fetch me. but then, to my disappointment once again, he didn't come cos he was late. So i carried a heavy bag and laptop and walked 2 his house. A million apologies won't lift my spirit up. I felt so disgusted but yet, i spoke nothing because i know if i speak, i'll scream. So i tried 2 calm down and kept my mouth shut. At last, i pretended nth happened but there is a sparkle of disappointment still kept in my heart.
Some ppl just do not appreciate other ppl ard them.
"you always asked me 2 care abt u, but did u ever care abt mi?" tt's what he msged mi b4 and i still remembered that msg.
that sentence only convey one message 2 mi, after so much i have did for him, he was never satisfied b4. All those, "thank you.", it's bullshit. It's pure nothing 2 him. Nothing can satisfies him. Which leads 2 a very important question, "Since when anyone is satisfied with whatever i do for them?"
"The day is just a drama and the night is the backstage."
people frightens me. i frighten myself too.
Why is it that no one is ever satisfied with me and whatever i do for them?
Sometimes, i just have the strong urge 2 end my life.
*Content of my blog entries are typed at night. It is extremely emotional and it is just how i feel at this very moment. So if u asked me the next day why i typed this, i would not know. ^^ sometimes, even myself gets surprise at what i do.*
"Thank you", these two letter words are so simple 2 say. In fact, i can say it for the whole day and not get tired. people ard me says, "Thank you, lili." ya right. thank and at last, the turned back at you and say, "Since when have you ever cared about me?" Such hypocrites.
i can't even understand myself anymore. why am i typing all of these down?
Today, i went for fyp at bugis. A classmate of mine and Stella says that the library at Bugis has free internet access and pin plugs. And when we get there... it was just a *diao* reaction because we can't even discuss there! What's the point! But ended up, i did a webpage for adding comments and after improvising a little, we left to have lunch. Eric brought us to eat fried wanton noodles. He says that it is famous and it was recommended on tv b4. erm... ya, they are right. i dunno how 2 appreciate wanton noodles. haha! In fact, i dun appreciate food! Look at me, it's pretty obvious ain't it? i still prefer wanton noodles with tomato sauce. It's so much better. ^^
"And this marks THE END of the entry."
11:13 PM
11:13 PM
Living a life full of life. That's all about me that you should know.