My Life. My Diary.

Can anyone entertain me by dancing or singing in front of me like, right now?

de ppl here are so weird, i can't get along with the rest of the people other than my own team members and a couple of them in this class. I feel like a crazy skinny pig who kept laughing while the other calmly sat there and doing their own stuffs which made me pretty embarrassing.

The ppl here are REALLY weird after what happened like 4 seconds earlier. There's this team presenting and there's this ger who was explaining to the teacher when she enquires about the slides. After so much explaination, the other team member actually said it's a typo error. -.-" lame!

Okay lah, erm, i have my embarrassing moments too.

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2:56 PM

tada!

Hey! I'm in class now and it is a thursday. It is quiet in here and i'm trying not 2 make too much noise if not ppl would think i'm disrupting the peacefulness here. Anyways, why is everyone giving me that weird look? Like i am an alien in school. Is it the way i dress? -.-" hmm.. ok. in case all of u are wondering how come i changed my dressing style, it is because i want to dress more maturedly. yups. becos i hate it when ppl ask if i am from secondary school which i am FAR from it. erm, like 3-4 years far from it. so, i have to dress more maturedly so ppl would stop asking me that question. okay, class is starting. update u later.

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8:42 AM

Hello everyone! ^^ How is everyone? *wave* haha! I had a nightmare last night. it's so.. brr.. scary.

erm, currently the only happy thing i can think of is that i am going Japan soon! Like a few months from now. haha! Isn't it great? ^^ I'd be going for quite long. I hope i can adapt the food there. Everyone is happy for me yea? hehe!

okay, when i think of something happy to blog, i'd blog again. I am happy. but erm.. can't find REAL incidents to prove that i am happy. i'll blog again soon.

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10:05 AM

School reopened

I am back! How's everyone? (If there is anyone reading this blog.)

Anyway, school had already started for me and what can i say... I'm still not use the facilitators and new classmates though cos most of them still seems alien to me. And there are a couple of them whose's impression wasn't good but it isn't fair for me to judge from first impression. (like i care). hahaha! ahem.

i went for a talk yesterday by UAN and i realized that it is difficult to really strive in there because there are alot of competitors there. Okay, not competitors but It's hard to be somehow the outstanding one. Angeline is so blur can! wah lao! Someone has to install a new processor in her brain. She totally just stone there for 5 seconds before going, "huh?" Stephanie went crazy talking to her.

I made a fool out of myself from my first lesson of law. It goes like this. There is a court named as the coroner's court in Singapore and it actually deals with UNNATURAL deaths. I went to say.. "Mysterious death" and everyone went.. "huh?" including the facilitator, Melissa who went smiling at me the most because i screwed it up. grr.. NEVERMIND. I'll just stuff myself with sweets to forcibly make me forget about that incident.

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8:26 AM

School is reopening 2mr. I wonder what kinda facilitators I would end up getting again. Some facilitators just do not have mercy for us students. If i were a fairy (not a witch), I would wave my magic wand and make students and facilitators exchange roles for a day. I'll make sure i'm the one who is going to torture them! When they answer a question, i'd say, "WRONG! i have the right answer. and ONLY mine is right." If not, i'd go, "Hmm, a very intelligent girl. Very diligent. Good!" Den i'd give them a C for daily grade. *giggle secretly* Den when they ask, i'd say, "Oh, your presentation skills it not up to standard yet. Try harder next time." This is not call cruelty ppl, in chinese, this is call, "With one tooth, give back one tooth." Okay, i don't know how to directly translate it over to english cos it sounds awful. erm, just treat it as i said, "retribution". Ya, right. just forget about that tooth part.

Oh right, anyway, i went for my talent class last night. i reached there at 720p.m. Surprisingly, the door was locked and the lights were off. so i was like, "hmm.. that's weird. maybe the care-taker is late." so i went pacing around outside of the school like... 3 metres away from the school because i do not want others to know that i was locked out of school which doesn't sound pleasant, see. I called up Angeline and Huiying but they did not pick up their phones. I was thinking, "that's weird.." While pacing 3 metres outside the school, suddenly, i gasped and thought, "They have not been kidnapped within the school did they?" I got so panicky that i rushed back to school and look again. Apparently, there aren't anything unusual other than the door is STILL lock. So at last, i called huiying again and she picked up the phone. The first sentence gave the shock of my life.

"Today have lesson meh?!"

Some invisible hand must have caught me while i was about to faint because i was still standing with the hp. So, okay, i was the blur one who do not know there isn't lesson last night. Come to think of it, I msged Natalie the day before, "cya 2mr", how come she didn't tell me something like, "c you? Like how?" But then again, she might have overlooked my msg, so it's alright.

the point is the schedule is confusing you see. Take a look at the two words below and try to spot the difference.

"Thu"
"Tue"

Confusing isn't it?

You bet it is. I can hardly spot the difference! What, is it so difficult to spell out the whole word? I bet anyone can get confused by that!

Apparently not cos i was the only one who saw it wrongly.

But maybe mine was changed! So other's schedules have their days spelt out nicely while mine is in short form cos they think i'm smart enough to figure it out myself. right. pea brains.

Alright alright, i didn't take a second look at the schedule alright.

The point is the schedule is STILL as confusing so the fault isn't mine.

So when i was walking towards the MRT at the road that leads towards it, i saw something scurried from one small drain to another.

rats! i mean... RATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! big fat grey RATS!!!

I took another step forward thinking, "Okay, i can easily avoid that rat."

When i took another step forward.. i saw another.. and another.. and another...

My reaction goes... "-.-"" then --> "*_*"

The first thing i thought of is, "HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME!!!"

The rats have to come out to play when i was locked out of school due to the stupidity of the schedule. I could have sworn i love cats at the particular moment cos i have to walk back and go another way to the MRT which wasted me 5 mins cos for 3 mins, i was standing at the road wondering how can i avoid the rats. I wanted to run but i'm afraid it'd scurry towards me and i'd step on it which is way gross. Apparently, i do not have some fascination for stepping on rats.

Btw, i went to zoo yesterday. I think i got lucky from morning till noon cos i saw lotsa stuffs that i've never seen before! I was darn lucky till that "award of studpidity" that goes to schedule come.

1st: My bf and I entered the zoo and guess what! There was a personal tour guide giving details about each animals! Aw! What could beat that, man! Two personal tour guides. Right. Where was I. Yes, personal tour guide. So my Bf and I were quietly listening to her talk and secretly trying to blend into the crowds so she wouldn't know. But at last, i realized she was too slow becos she took like 2 mins to describe one animal. By that time, my bf and i would be stranded inside the zoo. maybe it would be better that way so i would have to go all the way to newton and call up my frens like some kinda blur cock.

2nd: I saw tortoises made love!! Aw man! BEAT THAT! I video-taped it. Okay, that isn't my hobby alright. I do not have that fascination. But then again, it is not everyday that u see animals make love right? I mean, the tortoise was so concentrating on making love that they didn't saw me staring at them intently. That is after 5 mins, the male tortoise saw cos all the way, he was trying to climb on top of the female one to make love while the female embarrassingly trying to shun away. The male tortoise looked at me and i looked at him. (NO, there wasn't any chemistry) and immediately, he went to hide inside his shell till i left. It is hilarious though.

Oh right. i'm going back to playing games. bye!

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7:46 AM

Today is yet another peaceful day. In fact, it is so peaceful that i can even hear what is going on at Malaysia. p.s. if you believe that i said earlier, you have another thing coming.

I'm so bored. REALLY. I've been playing game for the past three hours I think and i'm getting very piss. Daddy is celebrating his birthday 2mr. But actually, his birthday is 2mr. haha! We are going to paragon to have our dinner!

School is re-opening soon. i don't know why but i'm not looking forward to it. (Mom just waved for me to go over to the study-room yet again. It's darn irritating becos due to my intuition, she is going to ask me to chat with that ger over at china again. Am i really SO DARN FREE to help tutor that ger english!?! Do i look like someone who is so free? who does she think i am? God?) I am not jealous anyway. though mom has her photo on her hp. I am not jealous that mom calls her practically three times a week which is rather irritating. ARGH.

Anyway, back to the topic. I am not looking forward to school re-opening. HEY! btw, i just know that i am the top 5% in school for the last two semester. It is not easy though. Imagine you have to concentrate 5 times a week to the facilitator, answer questions, research and visit the library everyday. aw. i dun wanna go back to that life again, believe it anot.

OKay, i'm going to go back to my doing-nothing time, gotta go. tata!

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11:10 AM

Today is a very nice and peaceful day. Okay, not really very peaceful but then, whatevr. hahah! i dunno what i'm trying 2 say here. anyway, i went for a interview for waitress this morning and it worked out okay. That person is impressed with my looks, figure and mostly, i smile alot. haha! ah, see. i smile a lot. i'm a nice person. -.-" okay, a little no link. ignore me. So he say that one hour, it's $7 and i can work on weekends. isn't it nice? but i dunno when does work commence. By then, i should be like a zombie. haha!

My poor brother is suffering in his hostel. he complaint that it is hot there. I couldn't do anything though so i bought him tidbits to bring to his hostel. but he hasn't come home yet so i shall pass it to him when it next return home.

Today, poor angeline got scolded by naxim (our modelling instructor). sigh.. but then she improved a lot at the end of the lesson and naxim is impressed. ^^ at least all turns out well. I wish i have stephanie's look! She is so gorgeous, not like me. -.-" Naxim say i have a nice physics. (erm, what is that? i think it means physical appearance) and he asked me to maintain it. and he say i've been sensational throughout all the lessons and he is impressed that i walk well. YEAH!!! at least i am good at something now. ha! Who wouldn't walk well in heels if you wear heels since primary school! duh! Den he ask me to grow taller. AHAHAHH! RIIghthtt.. singapore guys are all so short, if i grow any taller, i wouldn't have to bother looking for husbands next time cos i can just go marry some american boys. =x oops. sorry, no offence, zhen de. anyway, i can't grow any taller than this anymore.

okay, i'm so tired i can hardly keep my eyes open. i'm going over to my aunt's place to eat 2mr. YYEAHHH.. nites!

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12:06 AM

I just came back from my grandmother's place. I went to Bugis and the National Library there. Right... whatever, call me miss kiasu who went to borrow books even before semester starts. WHATEVER. Look at your grades b4 u laugh at mi okay. I shall have the last laugh. here goes, "HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!"

Okay, enough of that laughing cos i'm still having sore-throat. I can see that it's bleeding cos it is only hurting at my upper throat. Anyway, the thing is, mom was pestering me to help her with something. No, help her friend with something which i totally have no intention of helping becos i hate to be some kinda K.P.O to stick my nose into everyone's business cos firstly, and the major point is that i've no time, secondly, and another major point is that I AM NOT GOD. I dun go around sticking my nose to someone's butt and say, "hey, u smell." cos it's none of my business right? bad example but what the hell, as long as you get the point, it's alright. haha.

So my mom, her usual petty -I-dun-care- attitude was switched on the moment i told her 'no' for the 6th time. (no, i didn't count. just an approximation.) so, i hecked care her as well and continue to walk to the bus stop wif her heading first. When we board the bus, i messaged her though she was just 10 cm away from me. and we smiled foolishly at each other. -.-" right. that's how normally we pretend nothing had happened but she IS still pestering me to help her which i still stubbornly by nature won't help.

So, we board bus 67. Mom wanted to do something in the bus which i still couldn't believe my eyes and ears. MEDITATE! how can anyone MEDITATE IN THE BUS?! can someone tell me?! Now i know why am i so dumb. i must have inherited it from someone in my family which u can guess by now who it is. The point is, at last, she gave up cos the bus was jerking and it is impossible to even sleep. So, she read a few pages before sitting calmly at her seat and looking at the rain pouring outside. Here is our conversation which i'm trying 2 remember:

Mama: Lili, it's raining outside leh.
Me: So?
Mama: Dun tell me we have to walk very far.
Me: Erm... no lah. 10 mins walk.

*pause*

mama: that guy behind us is using laptop leh.
me: uh huh.
mama: he is watching cartoon
me: *nod head*
mama: He watching la bi xiao xing
me: *rolled eyes* as if he is facing you, you can see meh. dun be lame can.

*pause*
a indian guy board and sit in front of her.
mama: *waved her arms in front of her face* shoo, sit another seat. (in chinese)
Me: -.-"
mama: lili, this bus have go bugis meh?
Me: We have to walk.
mama: but i thought this bus only goes to little india?
Me: *laugh* ma, do this action, *take a deep breath*
mama: *laugh*
Me: we are alighting at little india. when we alight, do that action too okay.
mama: *laugh* you ar. wah lao, bring me all the way here and aligh at little india some more.
me: I forgot to tell you, we are alighting in front of a indian coffee shop.
mama: *sian*

HAHAHAH!
you should have seen her expression lah. DARN FUNNY that i couldn't resist laughing out loud.

she gave that "buay tahan" look.

so we alighted and mom gave that look again so i laughed again. no offence to the indian guys okay, just that my mom erm.. kinda sensitive to that kinda smell. my deepest apologies.

anyway, we went to the toilet and mom complaint about the shit in the toilet bowl. and also, asking whether why i came all the way here whether if it is to show off my white skin color. -.-"

so we went to the temple to pray den we went to the library.

i couldn't stand it.

I do not know whether i am enchanted with a spell called "stupid" cos when i'm with my mom, it seems like i am under that spell. We went in the NLB and you know it has many storeys right. so the point is, i remembered that the central library is at second storey. when we wanted to take the escalator up, i noticed the escalator is not working. so mom was complaining and stuffs so we went to take the lift.i pressed the 3rd floor button cos i tot i saw the word "library" there. But ended up, it's a drama centre. so mom pressed the 7th floor. and we came to an empty floor. -.-" no, it's not empty. it's the reference library. so we took the escalator down. At one of the floor, we came to an escalator which is not moving. so mom was complaining again. the moment we stepped on that escalator, it MOVED!

How could i have been so dumb to forget that the escalator there was automated? -.-"

and guess where is the central library?? BASEMENT ONE! wat the hell. -.-"

i borrowed three books for my modules and we took cab to grandma house. yippee! happy day.

but then..
erm sore throat is still there.
and grandma cooked rice and CURRY

sob sob

i couldn't taste the curry cos i am not allowed 2 eat anything except rice and vegetables. -.-"

i swear i will not eat so much kang kong from now onwards.

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9:36 PM

I woke up late this morning like the past few days. I wonder why. Since the ghost month started, i've been feeling very restless. I even sleep in bus now which i usually dun! Some ghosts chant a spell on me. i seem more active at night. haha! Maybe i'm a made vampire who dun drinks blood. Ok. Just trying to make my life sound more interestng than it does now.

Anyway, I went Bugis today wif Huiying, my UAN best pal. I'm so sorry! I made u wait for half an hour. -.-" Gosh. Can anyone believe that i took the wrong bus which is 190 till orchard den i realized that i should be taking 190? How can anyone be so dumb? I was sleeping in bus anyway. haha! There's this woman who was practically drooling on me. OK, i exaggerated a little. But she was close 2 leaning on me while sleeping. From that moment i know that she was almost leaning on me, i dare not sleep. She seems tired though. So I try to avoid her head while keep quiet.

Anway, Huiying was like.. "how could u have take the wrong bus and only know it when you are in orchard?" after asking me to gobble my lunch down within 5 mins which is impossible for me the well-known slow eater.

We shopped around and we were pretty indecisive cos money is really hard to be earn. Huiying wanted to find a short-sleeve shirt. I was wondering at that point of time how short is her short. haha! Sleeveless shirt also have short sleeves. Just that it's short till u can't see. -.-" okay, that is pretty lame. We were also arguing about what is the difference between tanned and chao da. haha!

I walked till my legs ached like hell. I was so afraid that i asked her 2 sit down and talk cos we still had 2 go fashion modelling class straight after. We each bought two shirts. Aw man... such an accomplishment. ^^

We then ordered vegetables and rice to eat. She was so obvious that we have no money to buy other foods! MY GOD! she was like, "Eh, which one is the cheapest in the menu?" -.-" to think she say i embarrass her, i think she embarrass herself first.

We were 5 mins late for class and this woman was saying, "still stroll, late already." when we walk pass her. haha.

Today's lesson is about posing. So we were posing wif chairs. The teacher say that i have a good.. physics? is that what is it called? But i'm like so thin. and short. -.-" and he says that i'm going to be a supermodel. my god. if i m a supermodel, the other models must be presidents. haha. But the teacher is darn straight forward that he actually told this guy that he has zero value in him and that he has zero looks too. aw man. he was shouting very loud at huiying and the rest. made me so awkward. i dunno why. though it doesn't involve me, i feel very upset for the ones who got scolded. If i were them, i'd cry.

That's my beautiful day for today. tadah! Nice and simple day.

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11:53 PM

^_^

I went for fashion modelling yesterday.

The instructor is a director for runway projects. ^^ He seems gayish but then, he is a very passionate and friendly instructor! He wear heels! haha! And in fact, the thing is, he looks better in heels and walks better than us! darn.

We were told to walk individually after we were taught how to catwalk.

When it was my turn, he was looking at me and say, "Wow! Skinny legs but beautiful walking!" I smiled and was pleased.

Then, i began to wonder.. "Is that even a compliment?" hahaha! Lotsa ppl are on case about my weight, physical aspects, what the.. am i like a walking exhibition? Do i look like one? No i don't. So stop making funny imaginative scenes like being blown up by the tornado, or grabbing onto a tree trunk when the tree blows cos IT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. I'm proud that all of you have good imagination but dun get me involve. I am not going to be blown away by wind. okay, maybe i'd shift a little but NOT blown away. Dun be over-exaggerating. what. am i an alien?

I'm so proud of my students! They've got good grades for their CA2 but they can do so much better than this. I'm sure of it. I'm really really very proud. And on teacher's day, they bought me a present! A photo frame! a pink one! haha! they know me so well! ^^ I'm glad my efforts are not wasted.

I shall go suntec to roam about 2mr.

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8:57 AM