My Life. My Diary.

menstrual cramps. Dying soon.

I'm in pain. In fact, i feel like fainting already.

I have my periods today and at the same time, cramps! Argh! it's been going on for approximately 6 hours and I am going to die soon.

I am going to find a natural cure to this cramps to help all women! YES! Particularly me. hahaha! Nah, i'm not so noble. I might end up eating weird herbs and die of poison while finding out the cure which is a pretty dumb way to die.

Most of the websites of cure on menstrual cramps are fake.

They would coax you into paying and letting them stuff drugs into your mouth. Who knows? you might just get lucky and die too of poison which was mentioned earlier, a little dumb. So, erm... the internet is certainly not a good medium to search for a resource.

See.. you want to see proof on websites that lure you into buying their products? Let me show you:

- http://www.naturallydirect.net/menstrual-cramp-relief.htm

- http://www.natural-menstrual-cramp-relief.com/ (They said natural and that certainly attracted me.. into stepping into their trap.)

- http://health.allrefer.com/health/menstrual-cramp-relief-info.html (This is a pretty good website.. that is if you are hardworking.)

This is what the website states if you are lazy to open the url:

Information
Question:What is an effective treatment for relieving menstrual cramps?Answer:Ibuprofen and naproxen sodium are common over the counter medications that can help relieve menstrual cramps. Using a heating pad or hot water bottle may also make you feel better. Other measures to talk to reduce or prevent cramps include:
-Walk or exercise regularly, including pelvic rocking exercises.
-Follow a diet rich in complex carbohydrates, like whole grains, fruits, and vegetables, but low in salt, sugar, alcohol, and caffeine.
-Practice relaxation techniques like meditation or yoga.

In the first place, i do not know what is that Ibupblah blah and naproxen blah blah.

Secondly, hot water bottle? You want me to melt the water bottle or something by putting it into the microwave? my dad would go over the roof if he found out that i do that. I might just run an extra expense to having to pay an extra home appliance.

Thirdly, i do walk regularly. In fact, i walk everyday. And what is a pelvic rockig excercise? Sounds.. wrong.

Anyway.. fourthly, i do eat fruits. Just not papaya, starfruit, watermelon and honey dew.

Fifthly, i know i am still young to get addicted to it but I LOVE COFFEE! i simply can't live without it. if i miss my coffee, i would be looking like a zombie and you do not wish to see me looking like a zombie right.

sixthly: NO, NO, NO, no meditation or yoga. Oh pls. I would prefer the cramps, really.

So.. ended up, this website is not really that helpful either.

Okay, but i saw a website that suggested massage.

oh yes, massage.

what a lovely excuse to get someone to massage for me

hehehe..

xxxiiaaoohsssinnn....

hehehe.

K lah. i was just kidding. of course. i won't be so evil as to asking xiaohsin to massage for me like 12 hours a day right? I'm not that bad. Perhaps.. 30 minutes would be sufficient. what a lovely excuse. ^^ I can feel the pain easing already. Oh, xiaohsin isn't here. There is still daddy. ^^

Okay, anyway, mom was making a fuss over her hp and her sim card.

the problem started out with that Alice, her collegue, was unable to send her a 3 pages long message to my mother as it'd show that some texts are missing.

Alice is using Sony Ericsson.

So mom was making a fuss over it for almost a week now. She kept asking people to send her that 3 pages long msg to check what was wrong with her hp. She was so hysterical and determined to know what is the problem that she wanted to go down to the service centre just to ask why she can't receive a 3 pages long msg from Alice. JUST ALICE.

I asked her:

"Do you usually have such long msges from people? Why make a fuss over it?"

She just replied simply: "because i'm curious"

What can i say? -.-" She would not understand if i tell her curiousity kills the cat. She would just ask me why not a dog but a cat, so i shall avoid all ways and means of interacting with her in the form of a doubtful conversation to save me from answering a bundle of irrelevant questions to feed her curiosity which i am reluctant to feed in order to save my necessary time and saliva for more relevant activities like perhaps, sleeping which i am going to do in five minutes time.

So the point is that, she got so agitated with the fact that she can't receive the 3 pages long msg that she want to change sim cards with me to check if it's her hp problem. Ended up, it's still her hp's problem. I gave her a logical explanation but she just refuse to accept it. She just want to declare war with that hp of hers. I wonder why. maybe it's too cheap for her.

I told her: "Sony Ericsson/M1 is slow with their network. That is why, you have to hold on to the message and not press it away from the display because it needs to take time to update. UNDERSTAND?" Obviously, she just wants to think that her hp is lousy.

When she used nokia the first time, 3310, she complained.

When she switched to samsung, she complained once again.

When she switched back to nokia, this time, she complained, AGAIN.

never. NEVER one phone is good enough for her. i wonder if all the phones should be condemn or it's my mother being fussy. I think i shall take it as all the phones are lousy to save my head.

Anyway, that woman from my previous waitress's job company called xiaohsin. I think she is too afraid to call me. ha! What a scaredy cat! She called xiaohsin to ask us if we wanna work starting from next week.

I care?

Obviously i do not since she does not care about her human resources. It's just a form of resource for them to continue business be it whether the resources are happy anot. Their one and only focus is the business and shoo off all problems of the resources. What a nice company. I feel like...

prying the company's building bit by bit. What a nice way to relax myself.

Alright, i'm going to sleep now. I'm so sleepy that... i don't know.. i feel like sleeping right this second.

My auntie's favorite cartoon character. (My last family's maid which lasted for 7 years) Wonder how is she doing after the typhoon in manila. I hope she is not affected by it. Darling, pls reply my msges and letter.

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10:19 PM

The peanut job.

I went for an interview yesterday at Clarke Quay. It went well but there are hidden terms which were not shown in the job descriptions.

These are the terms that the person told me yesterday.

1. starting salary: $5 (compared to the $8 in the internet, it is so far off.)

2. if I do want to quit, give them a notice at least one month before. (fair.)

3. written test after a few months which no one had failed before. (alright, fair. I'm starting to wonder what kind of SIMPLE questions they are going to ask. Question: Do you think singapore river is clean or dirty?) After you passed, you'll get a raise to $5.50.

4. At the sixth month, they'll increase the pay to $6 if they realize that your performance is good.

5. At least 4-5 days if during holiday. 3-4 days minimum of working days if term starts.

6. No changing of last minute schedule if not, $50 would be deducted immediately.

The main thing is... the SALARY! It is SO different from the one at the internet. I have to travel to Clarke Quay specially to earn just $5 and work till i die?! I might as well work at Farm mart for $5.50 and it is only a bus away from home!

Some companies are just cheapskates. They want to have good workers but they do not want to make their salary attractive. They want to provide lousy salaries and yet they want to have good and committed workers. Who they think they are? They think they are presidents such as that everyone want to work for them when they are paying peanuts? I'm not saying presidents are paying peanuts. I mean, if they are the presidents, even IF they are paying peanuts, the people serving them would not mind as they are serving the country and all. But the companies are... i don't know.. looks peanuts and they pay peanuts.

There are no good movies around.

Night at the musuem: I've watched it and i give it four thumbs up (raising my toes)

Curse of the flower (something or another. i forgot): I do not like gong li and.. i don't know. I'm not really fascinated with seeing women with half exposed chest.

Charlotte and the web: I wanted to watch this... until i know... the spider died in the end.

I really hate it when someone dies in the film, especially, a good person dies. Yes, that includes a spider. So, OUT.

Vacation is about to end and hopefully, i'll get a new job soon. I want to earn extra income without asking my dad for it. I'm old enough to buy stuffs for my own without having to extend a hand out to my dad and ask: "Daddy, can i have $10 to buy shirt?"

No.

And i do not know if i'm continuing with the tuition jobs BECAUSE.. I don't know if they still need me. Their results are good enough, seriously. They do not really need any tutoring anyway. Yeah, three cheers for yue qin, jue yi and li qi!

Okay, continue to work hard okay, all of you.

alright. i shall end this entry with my favorite game. hahaha! enjoy!

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

9:24 AM

LV bag is to die for

School is reopening soon...

very soon. less than a week and i'm still not done with my project! This is bad.

FYP is about allowing you to get a feel of having a project of what you had learnt for the past two years. But all my team got for the project is a new programming language which is a killer. Django. What kind of a name is django anyway? WHAT is a django?! For God Sake, i'm still stuck at the search page! Argh! And one of my team member is MIAing and.. gr.. i dunno what to say. Why is it that for every FYP, i have to lose a fren?

Anyway, Thanks to the store packers or whatever they call it, how can they allow people 2 buy expired cans?! HELLO! The dates are not written there for decorative purposes! You are suppose to check and take out those which are expired! My dad bought home a few expired cans. and i ate one of them at home knowing that it is expired cos.. dunno.. i was too hungry. wahaha! No lah. i didn't finish. I know it looks weird already but it taste the same. =x

I'm going for another waitress job. Pui! Who wanna work at the restaurant which is filled with hypocrites and.. i dunno what to call it.. racists. ha. the supervisor is an obvious pile of shit. How dare she lied to me. stupid ignorant woman. i'm so pissed off.

My nokia's charger spoilt! I dunno how on earth it spoilt but it just.. not working!

I didn't even move it away from the original position of charging my hp. how can it spoilt? All i did was plug the wire into my hp for charging. That's all! How on earth it spoilt? it is not the fault of the wire so it has to be the internal parts which no, i did not throw the charger around! Of all chargers, why must i get the spoilt one?!

I hate it when ppl ignore me. Seriously. I really hate it when ppl ignore my existance though i am only standing beside him/her. it makes me awkward. it makes me bored. In short, it just makes me piss off. I wonder how can i stand the embarrassment and still smile? Can anyone tell me? Maybe i just do not wanna make things even more awkard by making a fuss over it. But i had enough. From now on, i shall eat alone in class. I mean, i am always the odd one out. I am the bookworm. The resourceful one. The studious one. The most hardworking one that no one will come to me unless they need a book or they have a question regarding their tests. If that's what ppl think of me, i'm going to charge them soon. haha. (an awkward laugh.)

Sometimes it just makes me wonder.

If i really do make a difference to them afterall.

*shrug*

maybe the fren of my life have not arrived. I think, by the time she arrived, i'd already been isolated at one corner and i bet i'd be enjoying it by then.

I've many frens. really. ALOT.

out of 100 of them, 50 of them are:

"Hi, bye."

20 of them are:

"Eh! LiLi! Why like that huh. how ar. what to do ar."

10 of them are:

"LiLi! My bf just dumped me! How can my bf dumped me! Eh. wait a minute. I've not told u i was attached right? let me start from the beginning."

19 of them are:

"nose high up in the air" --> forgotten about you.

that leaves my godbro the one and only whom i still meet up and chat. Though at times he does still neglected me blah blah blah, but.. the point is.. at least he cares. He does not ignore me when i am there. He does not chase away my problem and replace it with a discussion of his own problem. At least till now. Who knows in the future? I mean. look what happened to stella.

How am i suppose to trust?

What they did to me is an obvious gesture of unwelcome and fine then. whatever.

Oh ya, did i tell u?

I love the LV bag! The white color one.

This is to die for. and it cost 2000 plus! Anyone who can get 1 million of this kinda bags for me, i'd marry him. HAHAHAH! no lah! i'm not so cheap ok!

Mom and i went into the LV bag store to take a look and whoa.. the price caught us by surprise and i think mom nearly screamed. hahaa

Alright. I'll stop here. I'll blog again when i'm free.

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8:38 AM

the unfortunate events

I hereby declare that in this horrific situation i am in right now... only one word to describe recent events..

suay

If you do not know what suay is, it means, nothing good happened. In fact, bad stuffs happened. And it is not normal bad stuffs, it is extremely bad stuffs.

For me.

Somehow, wherever i go, i've just got the tendency 2 get scolded. it's not because i've got a "come scold me" face, just that, it's pure bad luck.

Somehow, i got scolded by a complete stranger over the phone messaging. Mother was wondering how come the bill had not arrived since hers already arrived on-time. ended up, this person msged me and told me that the bill had came to his/her house. and he added: "i do not know why you want to give them the false address."

I felt like...

@#$%^&*!@#$!@#

Like i did it on purpose!

Initially, i was calmed and apologised. Then, i realized.. what the hell. I did no wrong, for nothing, i got accused of fraud.

therefore.. i responsed in a very bad manner.

I replied him: "i'm sorry for the misunderstanding but do not wrongly accuse me of something i've not done. The counter lady was the one who wrote my address, not me."

Then, i felt..

Eh.. bu shuang leh.

Then i replied him again: "And in future, do not open letters that are not addressed to you. thanks."

Hello! He/she is freaking irritating can! And i bet it's a man. The msg sounds like a man. Sounds like those act ang moh but not ang moh people. You know which kinda people?

Those people who talk big and sounds big but actually, nothing is big except for his head. Someone who always wants to win the argument and whenever he cant win, he'll find all ways and means to get back at you. Someone who insults people like it's nobodies business. It's like everyone should bow at him and apologise. I'll felt like puking on his face.

grrr.. irritating. I wasn't the only one who wants to reprimand him. Dad too. Good old dad. ^^ proves that great minds think alike. How can that stupid imprudent person thinks that i did it on purpose? And for what? As if he would pay the bill for me?! Felt like smacking his face with rotten fish and force it down his throat.

I met up with doris jie ije today and another unfortunate event happened to me.

I had not updated my japan trips's entries yet but i'll just sum out one of the event.

"I fell down the stairs after laughing at a kid who was about to fall down."

I was walking down the stairs with jie when I fell down the stairs.. again. Somehow.. all the stairs are cursing me. Either that, or someone made a voodoo of me. Now, i've got a obvious, big, ugly, swollen, black and disgusting scar on my leg. Not yet a scar but soon to be a scar. like a few months later. I was laughing anyway when i fell down.

Dun ask me why. No, i'm not weird. It's just my normal reactions. If i cry, I'd seem like a small little girl who just wants someone to piggy-back me back home. So, i prefer laughing. And i'm used to all that falling down. No biggie.

I told my god-bro and he says that i always laugh when i fall down, so it's not a surprise that i laughed. How nice. Such a nice friend. The fact that i wish to die ten years earlier.

So basically, i've injured both my legs. thank god my hand was fast enough, if not, i'm going to land on my face too.

See how unlucky i can be? Together with the mishaps at work, i think i'm the miss-super-duper-suay.

I couldn't have been more suay. If i happen to be more suay than this, it has to be a car-accident.

Btw, i've watched "night in the museum" IT'S NICE! GO WATCH IT!

It's so hilarious to see all the wax figurines come to live at night! The main character was just.. aw man.. such a joker.

I'm so dying to buy the US version of Devil May Cry. Does any one knows where to get it? it seemed to be all sold out. -.-"

Okay, i'm going to rest. Medicine had dried up on my leg.

Anyway.. just in case, i do not blog after this entry until a few days earlier.

Merry Christmas, Everyone.

Ho Ho Ho..

-.-"

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10:54 PM

what a hectic and frustrating day.

I know i've not been updating recently. That was partly because i wanted miracles to happen to my laptop such as that it can enter internet so that i can insert my blog entries of my trip in Japan.

As you've noticed, i've changed my blog's song... again. I know, i change too often but then i get bored of something easily. So i have to change something of my blog b4 i dun even wanna take a look at it. I seriously am i thinking of replacing the blogskin soon.. right.. again.

where have i stopped? oh ya. this song is my all-time favourite song. ^^ Of all songs i sang at Kbox, this song is the one whereby i can sing whole-heartedly. why? i dunno.

Anyway, lots of things happened at home.

I'm so worried of my brother. I really hope that he is going to be alright. For a younger sister, i sure am worried for him. No, dun be mistaken. he did not kill someone or anything. nothing of that sort. my brother is such a gentleman, how could he have done anythin ruthless? erm.. that's not the point. the point is, i am worried. Never mind the details. I hope that I can do something to cheer him up but i do not know how to. aw man.. i'm not good in cheering someone up. I only can make funny faces which ain't really very funny at all at the second look. erm.. why am i such a failure as a sister. -.-" But still... ^^ i would hope for the best for my brother. I love him. As a sister. Dun add any other conclusions of your own. tsk tsk.

You know, I've not regretted having my dad as my role model for PP. In fact, he really is. I'm so proud of him.

I'm proud of my mother too. Not every mom is a taichi instructor + someone who is close to meditating in the cave + knows how to play the er hu + sociable.

Oh yes, regarding my work. grrr... at the thought of it, i have to clench my teeth before i bite my tongue out of frustration.

As you can see, it is raining recently. So was yesterday when i went to work. I thought that work is going to be easy because the terrance area, roof, garden and trellis area would be close so that left with the bar. Ha! wishful thinking.

1. i got one of the lady scolded due to the misinterpretation of blah blah. (i shall not name any names here just in case you-know-who tells you-know-who tells you-know-who. Basically, rumors. it's terrible what rumors can do.) Okay, the point is.. EVERY waitress and waiter are in the bar due to the rain. So there were like.. i dunno.. 10 plus of us? Or.. 20? Okay, so, everyone else were trying to do something though there were really nothing to do. So, blah blah was in charge of me. what the hell. I could have save the trouble and just went home. Okay, so, this blah blah asked me to stand at the reception.

Her instruction were exactly like this: "you go stand at the reception. if there are anyone coming in, tell anyone of us here." Something like that. Cos her voice were drowned off by the loud music plus, she speaks like she has oral problems that i couldn't really make out what she was saying at the end of the sentence. But the main thing was, "tell us if there are anyone coming in from the reception." so, i went to stand there and i did inform her when there are customers coming in.

So, after that, i had break time for 5 minutes. One of the lady with two other guys were sitting outside the toilet. the lady suddenly spoke, "you very cute leh. i asked you to be back up for me and you stand there like a statue." i replied, "huh? blah blah told me to stand at the reception and tell her if there are anyone coming in, that's all." She kept quiet. I just walked off and rolled my eyes. The last thing i heard was from the guys, "eh, who scold u?" The lady replied, "Who else would there to scold me! Of course it's that blah blah blah" (i dunno who tt blah blah blah is but i bet it's the man wif specs.)

I got very frustrated. I was guilty that i got her scolded but angry that blah blah didn't instruct my properly. She did not ask me to be a back-up or anything. She just ask me to stand at the reception. that's all. hello. it's just my second day. am i suppose to know everything?! Seriously, i felt like slapping her head off her body.

2. we weren't suppose to take orders because we were still new. one of the senior took the order and did not tell us what the customer order. he did not even set up the table. When the order came, that blah blah went questioning us like we were some criminal, "Why never set up the table?!" I tell u... i felt like... grrr... never mind. i'm forcing myself not to speak out any vulgarities of any kind., @#$%^&*@#$%@#$%^&

3. there were like 20 waiter/waitress in the bar. The bar is so small. How can they expect everyone has SOMETHING to do? One of the person who is not even the incharge and who acts like he is came telling me, "Can you make yourself useful?" Before he can finish his sentence, i cut him off wif.. "ya la ya la" i got SO IRRITATED. I got so awfully irritated that i felt like... !@#$%^&!@#$%^&* GRRRR!!! some of the waitress are so awfully funny that i felt like rolling on the floor and laugh at their face! One of them kept asking the customers where if she can clean their plates. Another one keep using tissue to wipe the table. Another one kept kpo snatching stuffs to do. Another one pace here and there like so guard and smiling. !@#$%^&*So why am i the only one who got reprimanded?! So many ppl were just standing there and i was reprimanded. is it just pure luck or is it just my face?! I think it's because i was the only CHINESE waitress in the bar so everyone is picking on me. stupid racists.

4. I was going to give the menus to the customers when they are sitted. This waiter kept SNATCHING it from me and say, "I give i give!" SNATCHED! The other time, i was going to serve the customer, he was going to snatch again but i said, "no, i serve." Because by that time, i was fuming and i think i was going to explode at them soon.

5. While i was standing there, another incharge asked me and another waitress to go over. He said, "Both of you face the customers and smile. Dun look else where. And, (directing at me) i know your piggy keychain is very cute, but keep it inside." HELLO! i didn't notice can! Another waitress put her hp inside my apron so i have two hp in my aprons so, there isn't space! and i really didn't notice the keychain hanging out. They keep asking us to smile. Pretty soon, i am going to call the woodbridge hospital to send them to the hospital for smiling at themselves. Are there any customers in front of us to smile? Imagine, you are eating and the waitress kept smiling at u. The woman would think you are either lesbian or you are seducing her bf/husband. Seriously, these ppl... !@#$%^&*!@#$%^&

See, so many things happened. at that point of time, i really felt like quitting. seriously. But when the thought of that i do not have much pocket money, i stood there and put on a fake smile on my face.

Okay, sorry.. i know.. i'm complaining too much. but..

grr..

!~@#$%^&!@#$^&*!@$^&

Xiaohsin is always lucky. He always get the good in-charged. His incharge would ask him to do that and that. Not like ours. ha! He went off to another corner to dunno do what. And that blah blah, she seems to be like competing for jobs to do. She never asked us to do anything but clean tables! I felt like asking her to lick the tables herself.

I felt like i am not cut out for any jobs. why do i always have such problems whenever i work?!

FYP isn't of much luck either. The supervisor is missing. He went overseas. He promised he'd check his mails but he did not reply my emails! Now i am stuck!!! HOW!!!

Looking out at the pouring rain, i just feel like it is the end of the world.

Looking at 2007 forecast of rabbit, i felt like tearing up the book. (in the popular). what a laugh. "Your luck would make a turn to be better. Better job opportunities." what the shit. I bet they meant the zoo's rabbits.

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10:18 PM

Work is tough

Let me do my own physical check up right this instant...

My arms... aching...

Legs... aching...

foot... full of blisters...

For those who do not know, I work as a waitress now at Tanglin Village, Oosh. Whoa.. u should have seen what kinda cars those customers drive over there. Ferrari, Mercedes, BMW, all those expensive cars! I felt like taking a photo with one of those cars but i'd seem like a despo, so i didn't.

So, okay, Xiaohsin and I went to be waiter/waitress over there for an event. There were like 250 people. Xiaohsin get to carry food and i carry drinks. And when I say serve drinks, i don't mean DRINK, i mean DRINKS, with a 'S'. And when i mean 'S', it is not just two drinks but 8 full cup of drinks in one tray. You know what was i suppose to do?

parade around and serve drinks to people for 3 plus hours.

When i first carry the tray.. my reaction was..

"Oh shit."

It was darn heavy. Very very very heavy. Very very very very very heavy.

I was trembling all over that i thought i would drop the glasses. I was holding Vodlka (i don't know if it is spelt like that. But this proves that i'm not a drinker.) with pineapple. A pretty drink at that.

The first customer i served to was a mistake. I hope that woman who drank the drink didn't collapse on the floor or something like that. the man came up to me and asked if the drink is alcoholic. Well, the angelic me who does not go clubbing nor drink alcoholic drinks did not know that Vodlka is alcoholic. So i told him it is not alcoholic which is an "oops". So, yup, there goes the drink off the tray to his girlfriend.

I didn't mean it, seriously.

Okay, so the rest of the evening went on and i was carring tray of drinks to-and-fro. i practically couldn't lift my arms the first round but i got used to the ache after 10 rounds around the parade square. there were some customers who want non-alocholic drinks. So i had to carry the tray back to the bar and ask for a coke/sprite and carry it back to the customer with the tray once again. It wasn't an easy task for a skinny person like me. Correction. Slim person like me.

I swore I could have taken the tray of wines if i know that it is easier and lighter. I thought it was difficult to balance a tray of wines but then, i was wrong. when i was clearing the tables full of wine glasses, it was so darn easy. I could spin the tray of wine glasses with one finger. (That was an exaggeration.)

Anyway, i was sick the next day with a bad cough, aching back, aching legs, blistered legs, aching arms, fever and flu.. which.. is pretty bad.

I'm setting off for tokyo 2mr! yeahh! For your information, my trip consist of tokyo and hokkaido. YEAHHH! I'm going SHOPPING!!

Anyway, take care ya, all of u.

Update once i'm back.. if no earthquakes occur. hehe.

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

12:38 AM