My Life. My Diary.

If ever you're in my arms again

People who love this song, "If ever you're in my arms again", i found a better version. Okay at least that's what i think. It's female and male. They are from Philippines. Their voices are really beautiful.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXTWGdpp2xs

"if ever you're in my arms again"...

I feel that this song is full of regrets and guilts?

Though the song is really beautiful, "if" isn't a good thing. We should always live our life to the fullest and no, "IF". There is no rooms of "IF". Because truth is...

IF doesn't exist.

It just gives you fantasies which doesn't exist.

And also, it just gives you an excuse to avoid reality and to push the blame.

It's wrong.

There's no such thing as "If".

If = false hopes + fantasy

What is over is already over and done with. There's no "if".

Imagine someone meet up with a car accident and is in coma... the loved one go, "If only i sent you home.", "If you wake up, I'd be with you."

No, I'm sorry. Things doesn't work this way. There are a lot of "If", but just how many is reality? one out of a million.

It just gives you the perfect excuse to escape the present and leave it to fate.

It's dumb and stupid.

I hate the person who create the word, "if".

It just implants fake thoughts into individuals which is wrong.

Everyone is in control of their own lives. If they want to leave it to fate, they can jolly well stay home to rot. Maybe money will drop from the sky.

I despise people who leave it to fate.

They are people of the worst kinds who are just plain lazy and possess no confidence and coward that they do not want to solve problems themselves but leave it to "fate" or "time".

I know i'm being harsh but i put things the way it is.

And i'll tell you what.. it's the most used excuse to cover up the real reason.

Anyway... Jie messaged me yesterday saying pp's friend passed away in a car accident. The guy and his girlfriend.

What i can say is... life is unpredictable. Who knows. I might be typing this blog entry now but the next minute you know, I'd be in coma in the hospital.

You can say I'd not die so fast because let me think.. from my palm reading, future readings etc etc, I'm predicted to live LONG.

But then again... it depends on individual's karma. yes, a fortune teller told me so.

She said that even though readings can be laid out in front of you... but that doesn't mean that you'd confirm be going this route because your past karma and what you are going to do, will be affecting your readings either in good or bad way.

Anyway... pp's friend funeral's is just situated at the block next to mine.

Such a coincidence.

Sad but people come and go.

And oh yes, there is another saying that I don't agree.

"Cherish whatever you have."

Yes, cherish.

But cherishing is never enough.

Because people are never satisfied. People always think that they can do much better.

When you loved one is lying on death bed, would you go saying, "I think i've done my best for you. Rest in peace."

No.

People will in no matter what situation, say, "I could have done better..."

Effort can never be measured. Effort can never be enough.

Do your best though... but i won't guarantee no regrets.

Because there'd always be regrets and guilts in whatever you do.

Yesterday, met up with Alex and Rachel.

We had to rush through dinner at Pastamania and I bumped into Radz!!

I miss her! Someone is a mother now. *wink*

So we watched "Wall E". It's selling at 5 dollars per ticket for company. It was a cute and funny animation though. Afterwards, i dragged both of them to have desserts with me because i was still hungry. Alex had double shares for dinner so he was quite full. =x alright alright. it's my fault. I couldn't finish. At least the pasta i ordered, it's both of our favourites. So.. at least he was finishing pasta of his favourites. Not so bad eh? hehe! Oops.

Poor Alex twisted his leg this morning and he was limping. Rachel was like making a huge fuss because i wasn't helping him.

I was walking up the stairs with him behind me. Then Rachel was complaining, "Eh, Li Li, 你很好。见死不救。"

I was like, "有你救就好"

Rachel was already helping him and all so i was walking at the front.

Alex went, "I need both..."

I said, "做人不要太贪心。一个人就好了."

Then i put on a big grin on my face.

Then when we were climbing stairs, i ran up the stairs and all.

And i said to him, "Must be independent." =x Okay. I'm being cold-blooded and all. I admit.

We took the train home afterwards. And there was this man who was standing in front of me... e was having an erection after staring at me. My God.

I requested to change place to stand with Alex such that i don't face that desperate man. Rachel alighted at Tiong Bahru. Alex lives in Clementi. So, we were chatting and all. Rachel says she wants to go pub and clubbing. She asked me to accompany her.Ｉwas like, "ok ok. but don't ask me to dance okay. I don't dance."

Oh yes.. and Rachel and her big mouth.. she was so afraid of bumping into her ex in Suntec and seriously... I JUST BUMPED INTO MY EX.

I quickly hide at the side of Alex.

It brings back nightmares

He is one pervertic idiot.

*shivers*

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

9:08 AM