1. Save $ and not go on a shopping spree unless the occasion calls for it. (But I'm still going to get the tops from G2000)
2. Have better fashion sense and change of style. (Mom says I practically have the same range of dresses just that the only difference is the colour of the dresses)
3. Do SOMETHING to my terrible hair!
4. Clean up and decorate my room full of rubbish and even if there's a scrap of debris or dead rat, i won't be surprised.
5. Get a new phone to replace this STUPID K850i which shuts down by itself, lags, touchscreen spoilt and whole lot of other issues!
6. Get a mini cheap laptop to do my work.
7. Have 3 meals a day! (Okay, i know it sounds stupid to all of you out there but I usually only have like... 2 meals? At most?) I'm determine to start my morning cornflakes diet!
8. Put in MORE effort in my studies and i mean MORE! For no one but myself.
9. To learn ballet (And to those out there who goes "you are too old for that", "ballet are for people for have flexible body" and all... I'll make you eat your words in the form of garbage)
10. Improve on my vocal and perform on stage at least ONCE in Year 2009! I will practice and practice and practice till i PERFECT IT! To increase my vocal range and sing with better ease so i don't look like I'm having constipation when i hit high notes. =x
11. Broaden my vocabulary so my words won't be so limited. To improve on my English so SOMEONE won't have the chance to LAUGH at me. (I wonder who...)
12. To explore more of Singapore with darling! (I realized there's lots of places I'd not been to b4)
13. To work hard and play hard! Better time management skills and self-control
14. To save more money and plan out my budgets!
15. To improve on my temper! (I won't deny it is my biggest flaw and I'm proud of it. =x oops)
16. To read and collect more crime books! (Dad says I'm going to be featured in the book soon... as the victim.)
17. To irritate the people around me more.
18. EAT MORE DURIAN!
19. Force darling to eat peas, baby octopus, jelly fish and durian.
20. Live happily ever after
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9:30 AM
Hey everyone! I'd be uploading my Japan pictures soon.
You know I'm lazy... I mean, yes, I'd like to share but I'm just lazy.
And plus I'm kinda busy... you know... with other important stuffs... like..
sleeping and gaming?
Anyway, HEY EVERYONE! I took up Jazz Ballet! =D I'm SO excited! It's like my dream come true! I'd always wanted to perform in theatre and all. And I'm going to continue my singing in another school! WEEE!! And I'm going to do volunteering. I'm going to have a seriously hectic schedule next year. Oh ya! It's NEW YEARS EVE TODAY! I'm SO looking forward to year 2009. I'm so excited that I want to come out with my 2009 Resolution now!
Ok wait.
Let me finish this post and i shall start on my new year resolution list in the next post.
Erm...
finish.
-.-"
Shit. i sound lame.
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9:17 AM
Thank you for everyone's concern. Don't worry, I'll be fine. =D
Like i always say, bad people won't die so fast. =x
Anyway, okay, I'll be okay. Christmas is COMING!!! I will celebrate Christmas till I'm 80 years old with each and everyone of you!
I'm going Japan. People, start telling me what you want me to get for you but I won't guarantee I'm able to get it because my parents are quite strict. Something which is not worth it or like we don't happen to walk pass it, I can't buy. So think of something more realistic. Food is the best. =x
I'm going to come up with a new year revolution. =D
*excited*
I'll definitely be fine. =D
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7:19 AM
I puked blood...
Am i going to die?
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11:45 AM
I don't understand how some ladies are able to be so "hardworking", to be putting up layers of foundations, blusher, eye shadow, eye liner, mascara, fake eyelashes, lip moisturizer, lip gloss blah blah blah and whatever that is to cover up your face. I can't do it!
Firstly, I'm too lazy. Just thinking about having to wash them off when i return from outside is enough for me to turn nua.
Secondly, waste money. Just seeing me name so many products you have to buy to create a perfect mask for your face, you can guess how much it roughly cost. So each time you put on one layer of mask, your face cost $50.
Thirdly, no time. I take 30 minutes to get ready to go out which includes choosing of clothes, bathing, combing and drying of hair, tie my hair, contact lenses and eyeliner. It already takes 30 minutes. How long does it take to make up and prepare? If i'm not wrong, judging from some of my friends, one and a half hour? Imagine the girl woke up late and the bf is waiting for her.
Bf: Eh, where are you? I'm here already.
Gf: Eh Shit! I just woke up! wait! Let me prepare!
Bf: Quick quick
- 2 and a half hours later -
Bf: where are you?
Gf: Just stepped out of the house
Bf: *curse and swear* What the hell have you been doing?
Gf: Prepare lah. Eh. Curl eyelash no need time ah? Foundation not applied properly so I clean my face and apply again.
Bf: *give up*
Actually, I also envy those girls have the time to put on make up so professionally and all. I can't lah. I want to sleep longer. I don't have the discipline to wake up on time. And i can't stand layers and layers of make up on my face. Makes me feel hot and i mean literally.
But if you notice.. some of them.. after putting on make up.. they went to take pictures.. you'll see the face and body different color one! =x
oops.
I noticed because I looked just like that in my dnd pictures! Goodness!
Someone. slap me. for being so observant.
Okay. Back to studying about children.
I know.
Don't ask.
And No.
Dogs are not linked to children.
Different chapters already
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11:02 AM
Darling is coming back today!
Woot!
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10:05 AM
Darling said something that hit upon me to reality.
"If a person say he does not have time for you to spend more time with family, build his career, spend more time with friends etc... what makes you think he has the time to in future/after marriage? You mean he does not have a family after marriage? He don't have a career? He don't have friends? If he dun have the time now, he won't ever will."
Suddenly, reflecting upon it.. i realized certain truth in it.
I know what was darling trying to say and and i shall always remember this by heart.
Darling went back to Malaysia for cousin's wedding.
He pao qi me!!! *sob*
=x
I'm so going to get it from him. I can imagine what he is going to say:
"Eh simi! I asked you to come since my mom asked me to go back. Since when i pao qi you!"
aiya, that's besides the point. The point is i am still in Singapore typing this blog entry. =x
I'm going Japan soon! I'm so happy!! Going to be 12 degrees maximum over there and negative 2 over at Mount Fuji. Oh no. =( Am i going to freeze to death?
You know what is the most dreadful part?
When after you put on layers of clothing... and you go to the toilet...
Especially when you are in a rush to use the toilet.
Ai seh. Si bei shiok that one. =x You have to take out layers and layers of clothing.
song lah.
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6:13 PM
I'm studying Applications for Psychology and came to a chapter of Positive Psychology. I learnt a few good quotes that i want to share with all of you.
"Great performers focus on what they are doing, and nothing else.... They are able to engage in a task so completely that there is no room left for self-criticism, judgment, or doubt; to stay loose and supremely, even irrationally, self-confident...They let it happen, let it go. They couldn't care less about the results." ~ Dr. John Eliot from Overachievement
"This is the manner of noble souls: they do not want to have anything for nothing; least of all, life. Whoever is of the mob wants to live for nothing; we others, however, to whom life gave itself, we always think about what we might best give in return... One should not wish to enjoy where one does not give joy." ~ Friedrich Nietzsche from Thus Spoke Zarathustra
"Enthusiasm is one of the most powerful engines of success. When you do a thing, do it with all your might. Put your whole soul into it. Stamp it with your own personality. Be active, be energetic, be enthusiastic and faithful, and you will accomplish your object. Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
"Learned helplessness is the giving up reaction, the quitting response that follows from the belief that whatever you do doesn't matter. Explanatory style is the manner in which you habitually explain to yourself why events happen. It is the great modulator of learned helplessness. An optimistic explanatory style stops helplessness, whereas a pessimistic explanatory style spreads helplessness." ~ Martin Seligman from Learned Optimism
"The most enlightened people in the world embrace their full potential of light and dark. When you're with people who recognize and own their negative qualities, you never feel judged by them. It's only when people see good and bad, right and wrong, as qualities outside themselves that judgments occur." ~ Deepak Chopra from The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire
"Thinking is a habit, and like any other habit, it can be changed; it just takes effort and repetition."
"If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself but to your own estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment." ~ Marcus Aurelius from Meditations
I found one that i can use. =x
Be Unreasonable
"Everything you want should be yours: the type of work you want; the relationships you need; the social, mental, and aesthetic stimulation that will make you happy and fulfilled; the money you require for the lifestyle that is appropriate to you; and any requirement that you may (or may not) have for achievement or service to others. If you don't aim for it all, you'll never get it all. To aim for it requires that you know what you want." ~ Richard Koch from The 80/20 Principle
"Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather must recognize that it is he who is asked. In a word, each man is questioned by life; and he can only answer to life by answering for his own life; to life he can only respond by being responsible." ~ Viktor Frankl from Man's Search for Meaning"Be not afraid of going slowly but only afraid of standing still." ~ Chinese Proverb
Read more from this website: http://philosophersnotes.com
It's got really nice encouraging quotes. =D
Okay. I'm going back to study about dogs.
Don't ask.
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4:09 PM
I'm trying to control my expenses. Goodness. I tried my best not to even go window-shopping..
Then you know what i did? s
I bought clothes online!
SHIT!
I am beyond control! HOW! Please! Someone! Control me from spending! *pull hair*
Speaking of hair..
Me and my big mouth! I kept saying darling look like JC student. Now i look like one freaking JC student with my short hair! Shit! It's going to take months for my hair to grow to my expected length. *cries*
Everyone say i look like small kid. Black short hair. I really have a huge temptation of buying a wig to cover my hideous hair.
Actually isn't as short as it is but because of the LAYER! All the hairstylist fault! I want to cry.
I don't even dare look into the mirror. Every morning, when i brush my teeth.. i look into the mirror... and i think to myself..
"which idiot paste a hideous girl's face on the mirror?"
and then i realized..
"Shit.. it's me."
ARGH!
Someone! Please! Make my hair grow faster!
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12:51 PM
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10:27 AM
Dad came and asked... "为什么你今天那么早回？"
I replied, "没有原因."
Then he said something in which I don't know whether to take it as a compliment anot..
Dad: 你那么早回来,很奇怪 leh...
Me: -.-"""
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8:42 PM
Feeling emotional lately. Maybe it's because my office environment makes me want to go around poking people's asses with needles. There's this strong urge to spend 5 hours collecting nails and secretly putting it on their chairs, hoping they'd feel the shioking pain. woot!
Sadist?
Not really. A few people over there enjoys people struggle with their work and yet don't bother, piling them with more work. Who is the real sadist then?
And how about the tiko man who shoot rubber band at my butt?
Does my butt has a sign that says, "Shoot here, win $50 for the right spot!"
Tmd. Never die before. Lao niang didn't show power, he thinks I'm a sick rabbit. Wait till i show power, he'll know Dinosaurs haven't really extinct after all.
And I find it darn unfair. Why everyone complain me and buddy take pics very close 2 each other but no one complain my good old bf take pics with other girls very close as well ah?
EH! What's up with all of you?
Not fair loh!
I only take close pics with buddy. He takes close pics with 4 girls in one day.
Simi sia. so unfair. *wails*
I want to PROTEST! And anyway, I couldn't be bothered with people misunderstanding.
Because i am LAU LI LI. And LAU LI LI don't go around assuring people who poke their stupid asses into people's problems to fart, get it?
What makes you think I'll entertain people who fart from their mouth and asses?
I have far more important things to do than to entertain these sort of people.
Like digging my ears for example.
Need i say more?
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8:28 PM
Learned from my previous r/s
Never to expect or hope for the future.
Because the future consists of uncertainties and if one is subjected to dreams/expectations/hopes, that individual is in for disappointment.
I'd put in so much effort, but so what?
Did it secure a committed heart and relationship?
No.
In return, all i got was tears and a huge heartbreak.
It's gonna take a long time to regain back confidence in r/s again.
Ignorance is a bliss eh?
Thanks, Clement, for your wonderful quote
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1:25 AM
Living a life full of life. That's all about me that you should know.