You know why it amazes me?
Because everyone is unique and different. How the hell you compare? It's just the same as parents. I'm sure all of you are familiar with the, "You look at ah Gou! He scores 6 straight As! You?!"
Can!!! You put Ah Gou's brain into your child's head loh! Confirm can one!
You might as well exchange the whole body!
Everybody have their own strengths and weakness.
If up till now, you people who have been close to me don't know me well... then something is wrong somewhere.
1. I may seem ignorant doesn't mean I really am.
2. I may seem I'm okay with it doesn't mean I really am too.
3. I can give and put in efforts but i need appreciation
4. I don't look back and name out ALL the stuffs I gave to you and expect returns.
I'm going to RE-EMPHASIZE on my first point.
I may seem ignorant doesn't mean i really am.
You may think on the surface I do not care but I do. If up till now, you think I can totally forget and get over our friendship for the past years, then.. you must have got the wrong person.
I value friendship and family. Because of them, I am standing where I am today.
I'd not forget every single helping hand that had been reached out to me.
I have my circle of friends, you have yours.
If you want me to name out things that I am unhappy about our friendship, I could have name out a few which i think up till now, you still do not know about it but i refuse to rake up all the past incidents. There are times that you meet up with your circle of friends to activities that I asked you to go but you didn't want to. I was unhappy. But I don't make a fuss out of it. Because life is yours. You can go out with whoever you want to and do whatever you like. I'd never said things like, "Why you go out with blah blah blah, but not with me?"
I think this is not the first time i handle such issues.
People, what is your real definition of friends?
I've plenty of friends whom I'd not even met for months.
I have a busy schedule. I have singing classes, 2 dance classes, my school which take up another 2 more days. I don't even have time to go out with my bf on a decent date unless one of the class got postponed etc. If you are frustrated about my schedule, ME TOO!
You think I don't like to hang out? You have your schedule, I have mine. If our schedules do not allow us to meet, what can I do??
My only free day is Wednesday for me to pak tor.
I have so many things and issues to handle. I can't possibly remember every single details and all.
The only time i met dear after months is when another friend of ours went through a break up.
That's it!
Most of the time, we chat in MSN. The same goes for lilin. I meet her like after don't know how many donkey months.
Does that mean I don't care?
Do i look like the kind that "Oh, now I have dear, the rest can just go away." ?
And I'm not the kind to immediately update anybody when something happens unless it's really HUGE like i'm going to be a star or something.
It had never occurred to me to message you that I'm bringing my mom to the salon because I'm only sending here there and I'm off.
Friendship to me is just simple..
Sharing and being there.
That's it. Why is it that it has to be made so complex?
I don't ask for you to update me the moment something happen too. I believe there are number of times you choose to update your bf first or other friends which I'm fine with it. Because it may just happen that you are online and that something happen... then another good friend of yours is online so you update her immediately.
I mean, do we really have to be so fussy over little things like this?
If I'm really ignorant about our friendship.. in the first place, could i have been bothered to read your blog and post such a long post on it.
You should know me. If i really don't care, i seriously don't. I won't even bother to write a single sentence on it.
If you think you are the only one experiencing the "Why you didn't send me our pictures.", you can ask my mom. It takes me 2 years to upload our pictures into the computer. I'm just me. I always procastinate. I'm not saying that it's not important or anything like that. Like i said in my previous post, if we meet up and take pictures, I'd upload the pictures into facebook as well because now, i can just stick the memory card into the computer slot and upload ALL.
I hate sending through msn and emails because it takes forever. I'm impatient. I can't stand waiting.
Not sending you pictures does not mean I do not care about you.
Goodness!
Seriously NO LINK!
Do you see a SINGLE link?
I do not wish to go on a continuous blog-battle with you because it'd go nowhere.
Conclusion of this WHOLE friendship: I cherish and value every friendships i have. Not sending you pictures DOES NOT equate to I can't be bothered. I don't wish to rake up all of our history and debate about it because it'd be pointless. What's over is over. If i keep arguing with you over past issues which actually, I don't even quite remember much because I don't like to remember unhappy stuffs, It'd be endless. If you feel that I'm not good enough to be your sis/friend etc, I'd respect that.
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"And this marks THE END of the entry."
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Living a life full of life. That's all about me that you should know.