I had a couple of beautiful dreams lately compared to flying broomsticks, it's so much better.
In the first dream, I was working in one of the company (which up till now, I've no idea which company that is), where we held a seminar/event. The people who arrived are all my old colleagues, friends etc. The people who are long-forgotten (regretfully) through all these years. They looked very happy to see me and It's amazing how i could remember each and every of their names the moment i saw them. The feeling is beyond description. It's like finding back all your friends who you'd lost touch for 20 years.
In my second dream which is last night, I dreamed that I was in a school. I'm trying my best to recall but the feeling is just so overwhelming, I wished i could stay inside the dream myself and never wake up. But anyway, for some reason, it was very late and I was still in school along with other classmates. It was after P.E. lessons and I was the first one to rush down the stairs, (I've no idea where the stairs came from) out of the hall. Then suddenly, i fell. In that dream, i recalled that I was suppose to wait for a guy but I've no idea who. Anyway, I fell and the people behind me helped me to sit etc.
There were bags in the hall and a fat lady (Who is supposedly also my classmate) asked me what should we do with them because we are leaving school for home. So i suggested that we carry it to another room (frankly speaking, it's illogical. Like what's the difference it's going to make?!) Okay, anyway, after that, I managed to get out of that compound... and ended up in a really beautiful tranquil place.
It's like part of a mansion with a sliding glass door, sparkling pool was outside and there were beach chairs. I went out and i stretched myself. The feeling is like there's no one but you. The kind of feeling that you reached your 'goal'. It was almost night time. In fact, it was evening. And you can see the sun disappearing down and the weather was cooling. Clean sparkling water.
Then I forced myself out of there and headed back home. The funny thing is, my home was not my current home. It was my old house in Bukit Batok. The moment i got out of school, I saw the route back to my old house.
The feeling was just so overwhelming. It's like I'm back in the past.
Though I don't have many friends, in fact, I dare say I've none.. but I'd a really really nice maid who took care of me and whom I looked up to as my sister and my only best friend.
I was dependent on her for 10 years because she is always there. She never fails to be there. Whenever I'm upset, angry, happy etc, she's always there to share it all with me.
I guess, that leaves me to become who I am now.
Someone who is dependent on other individuals' joy and sadness.
But i guess those two dreams, made me pause and think, even though life can be hectic at times.. we should never fail to slow down and breathe.
Because for all you know, the one beside you at this very moment might not be there the next day.
Or who knows?
This is your very last day on earth.
And what had you been doing?
Working the shit out of yourself.
And for what?
That's why... It's important to slow down and relax once in a while. Enjoy yourself and be contented with whatever and whoever you have.
It's funny how people envies what they see other people have that they don't but people fails to see what other people do not have and be contented that they have it.
And as a result, people are always engaged in endless fights to gain what they do not have, sacrificing what they have.
Sometimes, I think...
the best place of all..
is in our dreams.
"And this marks THE END of the entry."
12:54 PM
12:54 PM
Living a life full of life. That's all about me that you should know.