My Life. My Diary.

My thoughts

Life is an endless struggle. Sometimes.. I can't help it but ask this question to myself...

"What am i really fighting for? What are the people around me really fighting for?"

Wealth? Power? Security? Love?

When is enough? When do we really think it's the best we can get? How do we know whatever we are having now, is sufficient? That anymore further than that, we'd fall?

It's easier said than done. To have a balance. But we all know we bound to sacrifice something for something else we want. How do we know we would not regret? What if at the end of the day, the after-math is non-reversible?

I kept asking myself all these questions over and over again for the past one to two months.

And I'd come to a conclusion..

Everybody wants to be successful. Everyone wants to be have lots of money at their disposal. I want it too. I remembered telling my friends that I want to bring my parents for first class travel. That's what i promised my dad that's what I'd do and that's what I will do. I'd always work for an improvement in myself. I'd always be at my best in whatever I do. Every little simple small task might seem meaningless but you'd never know when you'd need it. My singing teacher and dad had taught me to be patient. Good things have to wait. I'd be quick but steady. My future ambition is to be a sales and marketing manager/director and that's what I'd work towards to. I'll make sure every steps that i take, though it might be a small step but at least, I'm working towards it. My studies is the first big stone. The second stone to get a marketing job now, be it assistant etc as long as I get to touch on marketing, it's fine. Third stone I'd step on is after i graduate, I'll use my cert and experience to get into a reputable company and work my way up from there. It'd take 10-15 years but if that's what it takes for me to reach the top and STAY there, I will. Even if one day i get retrenched, I'm sure with my experience and skills, I'd be able to get another job of similar job scopes and income.

Slow but steady wins the race. How slow is slow?

I believe everyone misunderstood this phrase.

Asking you to be slow doesn't necessary means at tortoise pace. To start as a cleaner and work all the way up to director.

This phrase calls for you to be slow in the sense to carefully plan and analyze your next step and WAIT for opportunity and assess every of the opportunities and jump on it when the time if ripe. How slow can you be? My dad had taught me values such as, to be patient, and wait for opportunity. The same that goes for my singing teacher who taught me that. Be prepared and the opportunity will come. Widen your skills and everything so there will be more opportunities for you to assess. But don't be so stupid to stay in the company and work for 2 or more years without any promotion or pay raise, that one is stupid okay. That's not slow and steady. That's dumb and slow. Always have a vision and make sure to carefully path out your future.

Everyone starts from somewhere.

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

10:11 AM

Lunar Outing with Sis

After having dinner at Central point - Clarke Quay (We had laksa and Mee pok - in chinese, it's really call Mee bo lah! zhen de!), we decided to go for a drink. We walked all the way to the River valley side and scouted around. Zirca was closed for that night so sis didn't get to see how it's like. Anyway, we settled for Lunar. Sis almosted wanted to go some weird bar - Yellow Jellow. What kinda name is that?! So anyway, we went in and got a seat at the second level on the pretty red sofa. Oh gosh. I just love the sofa.

We had the house pour which includes the drinks and french fries! The french fries ain't bad. Nearby to us, there was this weird old couple kissing and fondling each other. What's with them? I guess they couldn't afford a decent hotel room. There was no bar top dancing when we arrived. Thank goodness. What's so nice about seeing ladies dancing with poles? Weird fetish for poles i suppose for that someone who created this dance. The next thing you know, the dancers are practicing with MRT poles. It's not even applicable to outside unless you want to be a pole dancer in the club or you are fascinated with dancing with poles in the MRT. Anyway, as usual, we took lots of pictures!!

Sis eventually left at 930. (ahem. No, I'm not complaining). There's this live band. Really good the singers. Real nice voice. Just a pity it's ladies. =x Kidding.

Anyway, the other time i went Zirca, a couple of fat ladies went to dance inside the cage and they are not the performancers. (I'm really just telling the way as it is) They looked like they were trying to tear the cage apart. And when the performers came out, the guys looked with their jaws hung open. They should seriously keep in check with themselves. Definitely look like some tiko peks. Oh ya, I have the perfect emoticon for them. Hold on.

So, men, this is what you look like.

If you think it's disgusting, try imagining it with hair, body, penis, testes, neck etc.

It's you.

LOL!

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

2:59 PM

Simplicity

Simplicity is the new elegance.

We are born in this world as babies. Babies are cute. No matter how bad of a day we had, when we see a cute little baby smiling at us, all our worries and troubles just seem to diminish. All of us had been through that stage. As babies, we were blissfully ignorant. We cry when we don't get what we want. We spoke what we have in mind (of course, not as babies. But when we were able to speak our first few words.). We do not care if our parents had a bad day at work, we just demand what we want and if we do not get it, we'd cry. We'd smile when people smile even though we do not know what are they happy about. We'd cry and feel sad when we see people looking upset. We enjoy little things around us. A new toy would cheer us up. The beautiful bird at the window. The zoo. The plants around us.

The innocence and outlook of life changed and diminished as we got influenced by our surroundings and nature. The experience that changed us. The fear of pain so we adapt. The fear of rejection so we tolerated. Soon enough, we are influenced by the people around us who came at the right time and right place.

Where has the innocence and simplicity of life went to?

As adults, we can still smile in appreciation of the little beauty things around us. Happy about little things like the bus uncle who waited for you to board the bus before closing the door. Happy that the weather is good today. Happy for people who are happy. Sympathize and provide listening ears for peers who feel down. Babies are made selfish but as we grow, we sympathizes and react as per situation allows us to.

There's nothing wrong with being influenced with positive people around us. I like to be influenced by the positive energy as well. I love to read self-help books because that's where people talk about their experiences and we learn from their experiences so as to take extra precautions and improve on whatever lifestyle we have.

But it's always important to learn the meaning behind every experiences, not the tools.

"There are a lot of obstacles in life and each time, i allowed myself to analyze the situation and think things through before reacting as per what i think it's appropriate. Selling properties had make it challenging for me because of the accomplishments gained after that. The smile of customers' face when they are satisfied with my presentation of the house. You should go try selling properties. Maybe even if it's not properties, you can go into other lines as well on sales."

After reading the above paragraph, what do you think?

The positive influence is "Not to give up". It is not "selling things".

This is what i meant by taking in the meanings behind each experiences and not material tools etc. All of us have different capabilities. People might have taken this route to succeed but that doesn't mean you have to.

I despises a lot on networking. I can be very frank.

I am not saying all of them, do not get me wrong. There are exceptions.

And i'm sure people in that line do not have the intentions of being the way they are.

It just became part of them.

It'd come to a point that whoever new people you meet, the first question in your mind would be, "Is this person going to be useful to my networking purposes? Is this person going to help me to achieve what i want? Is this person successful and financially independent enough for me to engage with?"

What happened to the simplicity in making friends?

Trust me. It just comes naturally.

It'd come to a point that the particular individual would treat making friends and knowing more people as part of their business and it'd became a necessity for them to grow their network.

Because they'd never know when these people are going to be of help to them.

They'd prioritize "useful people" in their life first.

You do not have to agree with me especially people in that line because they do not even realize.

But as observer, I can tell.

Making new friends to me, is a beauty. You get to know more people's characteristics. Know more about their problems. Their lifestyles. Their mindset. By that itself, it's an art.

You can tell whether someone is genuine about having a friendship with you.

I'm not saying networking is a bad thing. I'm not despising all people in the networking business.

But i despise people who have that mindset and thought.

Because it's sad. I feel sad for these people who have no "real" friends. Because all their friends revolves around motives and prospects.

So people in this line.. something for you to ponder...

"Who and what are the people around you and for what purpose do they serve in your life.. really?"

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

12:28 PM

Happy!

In order to be a happy person, i feel it's important for every individual to know the following concepts and to understand as well.

Contented
The future is important. Plans are important. But we should always focus on the present and be contented with what we have. Because from there, when we are focus and contented in the present, then, we'd be able to focus and plan out our future. It is when we are contented, we realized what we possess that other people doesn't. Given the fact that an individual is not contented, he/she would be focusing on all the negative thoughts which are unnecessary because I believe everyone have positive and negative thoughts. If there are both, why choose the negative? Be contented. The people who only had 30minutes to live in ICU hospital which they were you instead.

Learn to let go
I know this is really hard and it's easier said than done. Every couple does have quarrels and fights. But what makes a strong couple is that both parties learn to let go. We let go of our mistakes and forgive ourselves. Then, we'd be able to learn from our mistakes and not commit the same ones again. If we continue to beat down ourselves with blames and all, we'd never move on. So tell yourself, "Given the same situation again at that moment of time, I'd have done the same thing. But not in future because I'd learned to do better."

Think and act rationally
Now, whenever you are genuinely pissed and all, give yourself one hour or more to calm down before you act on anything. You can't control your feelings but you can control your actions. Tell yourself, "Okay. take a deep breath, calm down. That way, i can think better. By being angry like this, things are not going to get better." After you've calmed down, then think through the situation again. Always seek to understand the other party first. NEVER demand for others to understand your point of view first. Put yourself in that individual's shoe and all. Yes. You might not have acted that way if you were him/her, but given his/her character, think again, would you?

And the rest, shall be continued next time because I'm hungry! *grins*

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

7:08 AM

Never Assume

Never come to a conclusion base on your own assumptions, people.

Give a thought of what the other party wants before coming to a solution. Without hearing the other party's side of the story, you are unable to compromise etc because it'd be all base on your own assumptions and you.

Is that fair?

If it's in a relationship... think about it again..

Have you ever thought of what your gf/bf wants?

I woke up 630am today. Then i slept back and waited for dad to close the bathroom door. At 650am, i went into the kitchen and do my stuffs.

After all was done, dad came into the study-room and talked to me.

Dad: Why are you up so early?
Me: For fun peace and laughter
Dad: Don't think I don't know ah! Your dad is also very intelligent! *slap newspaper against my shoulder*
Me: Erm. Ok. Good for you. Since you know, why still ask?
Dad: Just to confirm!
Me: Okay. You are confirmed.
Dad: -.-""""

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

8:42 AM