My Life. My Diary.

Same old same old

I'd been feeling unwell recently. It feels as if my upper and lower part of my body aren't connected. Hold on a minute. They are. My legs, arms, back and head are so connected that the moment one of it is in pain, the other would react to it with even more pain.

I'm still in the middle of my search for the perfect job: Marketing Executive + Good location + Good pay + Challenging job scope = BLOODY HARD TO FIND

You know what's the problem with society?

Take the below requirement as an example:

1. Minimum Diploma in Marketing or related courses.
2. Enjoy meeting people, enthusiastic and adaptable to changes.
3. Self-driven, persistent and self-motivated

And just when you think you have everything that the requirements had stated, then here comes the last sentence:
4. At least 2 years of experience in Marketing for a reputable company.

Companies want talents with experience but few or no companies are willing to train talents.

Absurd isn't it?

Apparently, employers do not know the downside of having "experienced" talents.

1. Some are rigid to changes because of years in their former company which includes company's culture etc.
2. Fresh bloods bring more ideas, some old birds are stuck in a cage filled with their usual old ideas. (This is of course, subjective.)

Well of course, there are more, but that's not the point. I'm not saying it's wrong for wanting talents who are experienced but i feel new talents should be given a chance to prove themselves!

Anyway, the weather is pms-ing like nobodies business. Can you imagine those poor things suntanning in Sentosa and all of a sudden, it all starts to rain?

And they'd be drenched there asking..

"Where did all the sun go?"

I'm going Taiwan soon for 8 days. I looked at the itinerary and to my dismay, none of our hotels have hot springs. What a spoiler.

Every hotel rooms should have a bath-tub! Seriously! And a balcony would be delightful.

But as per usual, my diet are restricted to healthy food.. all thanks to my caring bf who snatch every green chili, vinegar, spicy food from my hands and... gobble it all down his gullet.. in front of me...

Thanks baby.

I love you.

I'll love you even more if you can give me just one more green chili for my hor-fun next time.

*flash a big smile*

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

5:33 PM

Random random

Though I'm going through tough times, I'm really grateful i have such wonderful sister to go through it with me, listening to me complain and rant etc. also, a good listener, meowy lin who would ask me out whenever she is on leave as well as buddy, though i don't meet up as much with you as before, but we are still buddies. BFF, who'd call me up whenever he've no one else to date (HA!). Stella, who at least remember to email and update me. Zhilin and Fei Hui lao shi who had been very patient and they always makes me laugh. Also, I've a really supportive and loving bf who is always there for me 24/7 taking away the fact that a few hours of his time, he is beyond contact as he'd be pigging away. Thank you for sharing your joy and tough times with me which makes me feel special.

And i'm sorry people, still no pictures! It can't be helped. My bf doesn't like taking pictures. *cough*

I need a new watch, however, i kinda used up whatever that is within my planned budget for the month. I know it sounds stupid but I'm wearing a watch that isn't ticking. At least my wrist doesn't seem empty. I know i know. It really doesn't make me pathetic alright. Don't have to sympathize me. I'm cool with it. I still can look at the time from my handphone.

I miss my heels. It's the only thing that makes me feel feminine.

However, my back and leg hurts again.

What time is it again? 1.38am.

geez..

I guess it's time to sleep... *yawn*

Later, people.

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

1:25 AM

I feel lethargic.

Suddenly, I felt that my past was a big fat lie.

As much as i do not want to be affected by those people, somehow, it's disturbing to know people are spreading things and talking about things that are totally absurd and untrue about you.

I guess it's easier to just absorb and pass on to other people of what had been heard rather than to think about it. I guess it takes a very important organ to get functioning which is the brain. People loves the thrill of listening to stories of people they know and then passing it on to other people thinking they know everything. It's funny that all of that had been happening and is still happening when all these while, i'd been genuinely sincere thinking that everyone is nice. what naive thoughts. Just when you think everyone is nice, they go around bitching about you.

I shouldn't have even step into that school. Should have just land my butt in Chestnut and just get it over and done with instead of going through all that nonsensical shit.

It's hilarious listening to stories which had never happened before.

"Oh! Li Li has got a boyfriend!"

"Oh! Li Li is a flirt!"

"Li Li is a bitch!"

And the funniest part is I spoke to them in less than 5 occasions.

Biggest mistake is entering that stupid school. Entering that stupid class. Mixing around with the wrong people. Believing in all their crap lies to get myself stabbed in the back. Helping people whom i shouldn't have. Getting myself into relationships after relationships just to get over a stupid past.

Those cowards who do not have the guts to come up to my face and confront me but go behind my back and bitch about me.

Probably gets the thrill out of making a drama of my life.

And thinking they have the latest news, they go around spreading to more people.

I've to admit.

It's discouraging..

and come to think of it... pretty much hilarious..

to have people come telling you how was your life like when you are living your life.

people.. what kinda nonsense are you trying to get at..

"And this marks THE END of the entry."

11:59 AM